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In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks, John Muir

I had this really strange thing happen. I walked through a pair of yucca trees on the trail and all of a sudden I just wanted to stop. I didn’t want to go further. My head began to spin internally. Smells surrounded me. I was taking pictures but it wasn’t me. All of a sudden I had this thought re occurring. I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to go further. I didn’t feel the need. I kept circling the trees and the nearby rocks looking from all the different angles. I didn’t want to leave. I could smell the flowers blowing in the wind. My head felt funny. I felt fuzzy inside. There was something in my head. Something buzzing around making me feel warm inside. Making me feel calm. Making me feel at peace. I didn’t want to leave. I just want to sit here and take it in. Watch the flowers blow to and fro and hear the wind pass my ears. I am here alone. No one can feel this energy but me. I felt it surrounding me, swirling around me with the wind. The light is getting brighter. The sun peaks through the cloud. The wind gusts stronger blowing the smell from me. I feel dizzy. I see the yucca trees. The energy is gone now. I have absorbed what I can and now I look around me. The rocks. The plants and flowers. My camera, I go to grab it but my heart. It wants me to stay, in this moment. It beats hard in me at my thought of going begging me to stay. Hummingbird stops and looks at me. It is gone now. We connected. I feel cold. My body is coming back to me. I think I’m ready now. 

I’m standing between the trees now. I look up. They reach out to each other over me. As if to make an arch. To cross over to each other and to connect their energy. I feel them reaching, wanting, craving. Or is it me?  

David Westphal